on top of the world

darkness spreads and the city lights 
flickered on one by one, on a cloudy
cool night, perched all the way above,
the view was magnificent;
lonely raindrops falling from the clouds
hanging overhead, the insects swarming around the light,
next to me, she sits holding my soul captive,
her eyes contained the very key that turns me on;
under a star filled sky, tonight’s the night
as i feel the warmth of your hands,
shooting stars keep passing me by
as I watch the night sky with you by my side,
the only wish I have left is that we could be like this for an eternity;
lost in this moment with you,
the light in your eyes,
with my arms around you tight,
locked in an embrace,
my heart and my brain goes into overload;
The time is slipping through my finger tips,
as I lose myself within your embrace,
as my heart beats so hard it hurts,
it feels as if I am on top of the world when i am with you;

 

love is in the air

Every word of his fills me with glee
Every stare of his energizes me
He has oxygenized my dying soul
And stole my hearton whole!
Every unspoken word of his conveys a song
Every smile of his showers affection
The magic of this relation has been so strong
My Heart echoes with his and I can sense the heavenly connection!
I can’t believe that am cherishing the sweetness of his presence
I pray God for him at every instance
and wish lifegives me a chance
If not, my heart will be worn out in his absence!


 

close to heart

disconnected from the world tonight
with my mind blank and seemingly shut tight
this emptiness that i feel all around me,
seems all the more familiar;
choking me from the inside,
my heart bundled up in my throat,
i could not say a word,
speechless, is all that i have become;
not a long left before this agony turns into ecstasy,
each day seems a bit longer than the previous one,
yet each moment that takes a eon to pass by,
makes it all worthwhile;
shivers rush up my spine
as the midnight air gently caress past,
i lay on my back and count the stars
twinkling in the moonlit sky, all alone;
why do we live
so far apart
i don’t know
but you will always be…..
Close to My Heart!!!

 

love is a strange thing

sitting at home,
everything is fine,
as the days pass by
one by one,
some long, some slow;
I talk to myself quiet and low,
elegies of my heart and soul…
a shiver, a sigh, soft words whispered in the dark,
my senses are mixed already, unable to differentiate
between a sound or a smell or a touch or a taste;
I keep dreaming of a time,
my fingers intertwined
with you, an everlasting
joy of time, heart skipping
a beat here and there;
as I sit here
thinking sweet thoughts of you
lustful images make my heart
palpitate uncontrollably;
trembling uncontrollably
the heat continues to rise
as I close my eyes and see
you standing before me;
I open up my eyes to find
that you are nowhere around
I feel a wave of sadness
crash upon the shores of my heart;
As i lie here obsessed with the thought of you,
hoping it will all be over soon and,
waiting patiently for the day
when I can hold you in my arms

the anxiety of the unknown

lying awake in the middle of the night
when the world is almost dead
with the rain drops dripping one by one
it feels as if the sky is raining my tears;
fear, that’s what keeping me awake,
as i close my eyes and try to slam it shut,
it begins to creep and crawl all over my senses,
starting with the most obvious and
branching out to all corners of the mind;
why? what? how? so many questions,
yet very few answers, as the mind
spins its intricate web over my confidence,
leaving me high and dry, gasping for breath
and keeping me wide awake;
as i lay on my back with my
hands under my head,
staring at the darkened ceiling,
uncertain and confused;
it was not supposed to be like this,
no one mentioned a word about this,
staring vacantly at the darkened ceiling,
i could not sleep;
trying not to lose myself,
my mind keeps thinking about
the if’s and the probabilities,
without a care about the present;
and in the end, it was all a little too much to take,
as the fear of the unknown surround me from all sides,
and darkness creeping its way up slowly and steadily,
the nightmares loom larger and bigger,
blurring everything else before i collapsed into a restless sleep;
 

life is a standstill....

it has been never been like this, 
not quite sure of what i want 
don’t know what more that i need to do, 
feels like a soul devoid of life;
one moment my joy knew no bounds, 
a new beginning is what i got, 
a new meaning to a lonely existence, 
i was happy;
as reality dawned on me, 
i felt my happiness come crashing down, 
all in one big thud, i wondered 
if my luck was anything but bad;
i try to find a reason, 
i try to find a cure, 
i tried all that was possible, 
but it feels as if my life has come to a standstill;
i don’t want to give up, 
i don’t want to cave in so easily, 
so i am desperately plotting my revenge 
against a life that has become mundane; 
(and take control of it once and for all 
before i lose my sanity and question my very existence)

alone....

Why, as the world spins, do I stand?
Still as the leaves, when there is no wind,
Why does it hurt so much?
When everything you believe in, feels right,
Why am I falling?
When everything around me is rising with the sun,
Why look for pain?
When there is none,
Is heaven a place on Earth?
Or does it come from the heart,
Every breath I take, is another fire, burning up inside,
I know that sometimes the truth hurts, but don’t ever let it slide.
Am I the only one, who takes pride in the little things?
The colour of the sky at dawn,
The feeling, knowing you’ve got something to give,
Even though they spit in your fire,
The freedom to run the waves, whenever the time is right,
The joy, of taking pride in who you are,
Even though they try and scar,
The flame of the candle, dancing in the window pane,
You are fulfilled; you have nothing more to gain.
Is there another part of me?
A part I do not know,
Whatever the future holds, I cannot tell yet,
But I can now see the glow,
A shimmer of light,
A glimmer of hope,
In everything I do.
Feel every moment you live,
For you do not know,
When the sun will stop rising,
Become who you were born to be,
For everyone is here for a reason,
Discover the meaning of life?
You will know when you’ve found it,
The warm heart, and sound of tiny toes,
Pitt-pattering on the floor,
The sound of giggling and laughter,
Where there was none before.
Feel love, when you give,
Not only when you get,
I ask for one thing,
Don’t leave this world yet,
You have many more things to discovers upon you,
And remember…
You’re never alone.